My daughter asked me this morning if it was okay for her to have a second dad to bond with. I had no idea what to say but it prompted me to think about where this came from.
She asked me this out of the blue. I’m not sure why though because she talks all the time about how much she loves her dad.
Is it because he’s gone all the time? I mean he’s never here and she knows he doesn’t have a job so I’m wondering if it’s because she doesn’t know where he is all day.
Or is it because when he is at home he’s in a bad mood. He’s fine when he gets home but he slowly falls into a bad mood whenever the kids start asking him questions. I told him it’s because he’s never here and he says I know but he keeps acting out.
I’m also hoping she doesn’t go trying to find a new dad either because that can get her kidnapped. It’s a scary thought and I hope it doesn’t happen. She’s my babygirl and I love her very much.
But also is she wanting me to get a boyfriend or something so she’ll have a new dad?
I don’t know what’s going on and I also don’t know how her dad will react when and if he finds out. He’s very sensitive about things like that and he gets his feelings hurt easily.
Not really because we homeschool but it looks really pretty right now but it probably won’t look like this when it melts.
It’ll be yucky and gross but that’s okay because it rarely snows here so we like it when it does.
Here are some pictures I took before the sun came up.
And a video.
I didn’t get my post from yesterday up until the middle of the night because I got extremely sick to my stomach because of heartburn. Really weird because I took my medicine for heartburn. I ended up having to chew some tums and taking a nap. Then I sat up all night, which is fine and all because that’s the only time I get to be myself anyway.
My husband woke up in a bad mood today and was extremely ugly to us all. He got mad about something and said
I wish I was still in jail
Made our daughter cry. I told him I could kick him out and he’d go back to jail and asked him if that would make him happy, he got mad of course.
He is driving me crazy. I will be glad when all of this is over.
Yesterday my husband’s phone was continuously ringing while he was in bed (thank goodness he put it on vibrate) and my daughter came into the living room while it was ringing. She looked at it and immediately slid the bar to ignore it, only his so called friends are horrible and I knew he was going to get cursed out about not answering the phone but it was too late it had already been done so I just laughed.
I did ask her why she did that and she said
I’m tired of them taking my dad away from me.
I was floored.
I had no idea she she felt that way or even knew what was going on. I knew they didn’t like it when he left but I didn’t know they knew he was with his friends.
When he goes off with them he stays gone all day and that happens a lot. They barely see him but he acts like he’d rather be with his friends than his kids. I wrote him off a long time ago but they haven’t yet. I feel they probably will, or my daughter will, soon.
I told him when he got up what she did and said to me but he was more concerned with the fact that she ignored the phone call and got him “in trouble” with his so called friend. It was like he didn’t care what she had said. Like he wasn’t listening.
I’m sick of him doing this to our kids. I don’t know if it’s going to get better but I hope so before they write him off too.
That’s what keeps going through my mind when I find out that me and my daughter are having the same dreams.
Last night we dreamed about her death. Now I don’t know if in her dream if she died the same as in my dream but it’s weird to say the least.
I’ve never had this happen before but what I have had happen is feeling uneasy about certain people or feeling like there is someone around who shouldn’t be there.
I also have these uneasy feelings about going out like I feel like something bad may happen and those feelings have panned out. I can’t recall exactly what happened that concreted those feelings though.
Have any of you had this happen before? Let me know in the comments.
Today I’m going to talk about marketing resources to make your business life a little more stress free.
Traffic browser is a surfing platform that you download to help your surfing to be more streamlined. I’m going to put a video below showing you how it works. If you want to sign up here is the link Traffic Browser
This next one is for when you don’t want to click for credits. You just put in the website and it finds promo codes for you. Of course the site has to be working with Traffic Codex to get the codes. It also has a browser add on that automatically detects if there is a promo code for that site. It’s very useful for days when I just want to get it over with. Here is the link to sign up Traffic Codex
Truckload Of Ads
This one is just like Traffic Codex except there isn’t a browser add on and you have to search for the codes manually. But like I said not all of the sites work with Traffic Codex so this is for when that happens. Here’s the link to sign up for this one Truckload Of Ads
Well those are my resources to make marketing a little bit easier. I hope it helps.
This is something I’ve been thinking about today, of course this is something that is different for everyone.
The worst experience of my life was watching both of my parents die and knowing there was nothing I could do to stop it.
My dad died from bone cancer at home in 1992. He took his last breaths after my aunt told him that his family would be taken care of and that he didn’t have to worry about us, that he could let go.
My mom died at home on July 3, 2007, my son’s 11th birthday. She was resuscitated though and lived until the next day when me and my brother decided it was best for her to just let her go because we had already been through this once with our dad and didn’t want to prolong her suffering.
She was in the hospital so no we didn’t kill her. The doctor said that they had done everything they could for her and that’s when we decided it was for the best.
There is no worse feeling than of helplessness. Anyone who has been through this knows that watching your loved ones die is horrible, but knowing they are going to die and there’s nothing you can do about it is worse.
I knew two weeks before my mom died that she was going to. She told me during that two weeks that she was scared but because I didn’t want her to be scared I lied and told her that everything was going to be fine and she didn’t need to be scared and that I was there. I later told my husband that she didn’t have much time left and she slumped over and died a week later with my kids in the room with her.
Even though I knew it was going to happen soon it still took me by surprise. The worst part is knowing that both of my parent’s were gone and I was all alone in this big scary world. My family doesn’t have much to do with me including my brother. My husband and I don’t get along and my kids are developmentally delayed so they aren’t equipped for what I need.
Anyway I just wanted to get this out there and I hope you found this post interesting.