Who Do I Admire And Why

Who Do I Admire And Why

My Mom and Dad.

 

Well that’s a tough one because I don’t admire just one person. I admire a few people.

I admire my dad because of his strong work ethic, my mom because she told me I could be whatever I wanted when I grew up.

I guess I’d have to say I admire my mom the most though because she pushed me to do things I didn’t want to do like learning how to drive. I was so scared but she kept telling me it was something I needed to know how to do and have a license to do it even if I never drove.

She said

You never want to have to depend on someone else because there may come a time when there is no one to help you.

She was right of course. I still don’t like to drive but I’m glad she forced me to learn and get a license because there have been times when no one was there to help me.

My dad, like I said, had the strong work ethic. He worked up until he couldn’t work anymore. I will never forget that day either. He was in so much pain that he was laying on one of the portable flats at his workplace and me and my cousin had to roll him around on it until we made him go home.

He was put in the hospital the same day, diagnosed with bone cancer the next day and was sent home to die. he lived for 2 weeks.

That was the worst 2 weeks of my life. Watching him slowly die and there was nothing I could do to help him. I never want to go through that again. Cancer took my dad and heart disease took my mom.

Anyway that’s who I admire.

Thanks for reading
Mary Owens

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Why I Started Online Marketing and Blogging

I started online marketing because I hated every job I ever had except when I worked in my family’s store.

My mom started out doing floral arrangements and drawing after she was in a wreck not long after my older brother was born and her back and pelvis was broken so she was deemed disabled. So she had no choice in the matter about what work she did.

She later branched out to doing craft shows and after that opened a convenience store to help out our neighborhood.

Then in 1992 my dad was diagnosed with bone cancer and died 2 weeks later in April. She decided it was best to stop because he was the only person helping her.

She also stopped because I had started working with my dad at the chalk plant where he was the foreman. I hated that job but I had a job working at Hardee’s that I hated also. I quit working at the chalk plant a few months after my dad died.

I wish I could say that was the worst job I ever had but it wasn’t. I started work at Wal-Mart in 1994 and not surprisingly I hated that job too but I stayed there for 5 years and then quit after my son was diagnosed as being developmentally delayed and my mom said I needed to be at home with him. Needless to say I didn’t argue with her because again I hated working there.

Every job I ever had I didn’t get along with anyone except for a few people which made working at those jobs unbearable. My job at Hardee’s was the worst though because the people always talked about me behind my back, even the manager. I know right? It was like being back in school. I hated everyone except a couple of people I worked with. I quit that job too and tried to go back to High school but I’m not good at making friends so I quit again after a few months.

I started the job at Hardee’s because my parents made me when I decided I didn’t want to go to school. I was being bullied to the point of wanting to commit suicide but my parents didn’t understand. I had no idea that working a job was exactly the same. I was naive and thought they would be fully functioning adults but no they were still children just pretending to be adults.

It was later after my son was born and we finally got a computer and internet service that I thought there has to be a way to make money online. I started searching and found that I could sign up for surfing websites and make money just showing my affiliate page. It was easy back then. Now you can’t do that anymore.

I did that off and on a few times then the last time I decided to do it everything had changed. Now thery were saying you had to build a list to make money and have a blog so I did that with a few places until I found the company I’m with now that is inexpensive and a wonderful company. The best I’ve been with so far.

Anyway that’s how I got started in my business.

If you want to see what it’s all about you can click here and sign up to get emails telling you all about it.

Thanks
Mary Owens

Ultimate Blog Challenge Take 2

Ultimate Blog Challenge Take 2

Well once again I am participating in the month long Ultimate Blog Challenge. I participated a couple months ago but didn’t really do any of the posts until there was only a week left so I am doing it again only this time I’m actually going to participate the whole month.

This challenge is to help bloggers get an idea of what they can do on their blog and it will last the whole month of January. I had fun even though I only participated the last week of it.

Last time I missed a lot of good posts because I wasn’t taking it seriously. That’s not the case this time.

I’m participating in this because I’d like to get more eyes on my blog. I just recently started getting likes and comments but I would like more and also I’d like to get ideas about what to write about when I’m at a loss.

If you would like to get involved in this just click the banner on the right if you’re reading this on a computer or at the bottom on a mobile device.

So wish me luck with this.

Thanks
Mary Owens

Got Plans For New Year’s Eve?

Got Plans For New Year’s Eve?

My plans are to sit at home and watch the ball drop on TV, as is the plan for introverts the world over.

It’s not that we want to sit at home because we don’t, we want to go out and have fun but then the moment we step foot into that crowded place we remember why we don’t go out.

It’s too loud, there’s too many people and we start getting bombarded with questions wanting to know what’s wrong, why are you so quiet? It’s an awful experience that we would just rather avoid at all costs.

Now going shopping and things like that is quite a bit different because there’s no socialising involved. We shop and there’s no talking and its quite enjoyable for some of us, until we run into someone we know and then we’re expected to hold a conversation. I don’t know about the rest of you but I’m bad with names and remembering things so it gets awkward real quick and I just want to disappear.

Sometimes I get lucky and they know me really well and want to avoid me just as much as I want to avoid them. That’s because of my resting bitch face and the fact that I can come off as a bitch. I look like I’m always in a bad mood even when I’m not and it makes me very unapproachable. It’s fine with me though considering I can’t hold a conversation and also tend to talk a lot and repeat a lot when I’m nervous. It’s a horrible problem that I need to work on, only problem is I don’t even realize I’m doing it.

I also am not good at socialising because I have a bad habit of saying whatever is on my mind and that can be something rude or inconsiderate which leads people to not want to be around me, but like I said I probably don’t want to be around them either so it’s a win win situation for both of us.

So I guess I seriously need to work on my people skills.

Wish me luck on that because I’m going to need it.

So anyway let me know about your plans for tonight in the comments.

Thanks
Mary Owens

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

As we close out this year and start a new one I felt the urge to write a post about this past year. It hasn’t been kind to me and it’s my own fault.

I keep falling back into old habits of trusting the same people and even though they have proven time and time again that they can’t be trusted I keep doing it.

You might be wondering why because I am too. It’s not like I can’t take care of myself I mean my husband was in jail for 3 months and I was on my own for the first time ever with 2 kid’s no less, but I did it and it turns out it’s not as bad as I thought.

Am I having trouble doing things for myself because I’m so introverted? Who knows, but one thing I do know is that I hate driving and new things, and it’s so bad that I will procrastinate anything until it can’t be ignored anymore and it has become a real problem in my life.

I have multiple health issues going on right now but I’m having problems adjusting to my new doctor and I’ve only been once. I’ve been breaking out in hives for some unknown reason and I have a lump on my stomach. All of this needs to be dealt with along with the fact I have to get blood work done too that I seem to have trouble with also.

So in light of the new year my resolution is to stop being scared of new things and get this stuff done so I don’t die prematurely leaving my kids behind wondering where everything went so wrong.

I am so hoping that any introverts that read this can help me with my problems of getting out and not being scared, especially about driving in the crowded cities.

Thanks and


Mary Owens

What If I killed Myself?

What If I killed Myself?

Me and my daughter July 31, 2017

That’s what my daughter has asked me at various times, especially her last year in brick and mortar school. She had been bullied quite a bit but I am lucky to have children who tell us these things because, actually I don’t know how we got so lucky because I know there are parents out there asking themselves what did I do wrong? Why couldn’t my child come to me?

It makes me sad that those parents think they did something wrong. The saddest part is we’ll never know what drove those kids to suicide. I’m just so grateful that my children felt they could come to us with these things.

But she didn’t tell me she wanted to die, no, she told the doctor and I am so grateful she felt comfortable enough to tell the doctor this.

But anyway back to the original question. What if she killed herself? I would most definitely cry because she is my best friend. After that I don’t know. I don’t even know if I could continue living without her.

I know what you’re thinking, what about your son and husband? They’ve never needed me nor me them but my daughter and me, that’s a totally different story. We will always need one another. It would probably be like Carrie Fisher and Debbie Reynolds, my daughter die one day, me the next and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I just thought about this because I recently started watching the Netflix series 13 Reasons Why and Hannah’s family had no idea what was going on with her and had no idea she had no friends because of one stupid picture. That show made me see why it’s so hard for teenagers but then I already knew because I was once a teenager too.

So please if you are in crisis please tell someone or visit 13reasonswhy.info for local resources to help you through this difficult time.

Also remember you are never alone, someone loves you and would be devastated if you were no longer here.

Thanks
Mary Owens

Did You Get Married Because You Were Pregnant?

Did You Get Married Because You Were Pregnant?

That’s what my cousin asked me later after I had my son. Of course I was offended by this because why would someone assume something like that?

I mean we didn’t treat each other well but we didn’t get married because I was pregnant, we got married because that’s what we wanted to do.

Besides we got married October 14, 1995 and our son’s due date was August 8, 1996 so we were married for 10 months, BUT he was born July 3, 1996 BUT he was 6 weeks premature so I didn’t get pregnant until we had been married for a month.

I started thinking about that because I was thinking about how long we had been married and I remembered her asking me that.

I know it’s weird that I thought about that question she asked me after I had been thinking about how long we had been married, but our minds work in mysterious ways.

That question still offends me to this day and I don’t think I’ll ever forgive her for asking me such a stupid question especially considering she was at the hospital when he was born so she had to know he was premature.

Has anyone ever asked you something that offended you and still offends now? Let me know in the comments.

Thanks
Mary Owens

I Gave Up On My Childhood Dream

I Gave Up On My Childhood Dream

When I was a little girl I dreamed of becoming a wildlife biologist. My mom always made a point to tell me that I could be anything I wanted when I grew up but the school told me you can’t be that if you’re not good at math.

The problem with that is I see people every day overcoming educational struggles to become what they dreamed of.

I still hold on to that dream and so does my daughter and one things for sure I will never let anyone tell her you can’t be that because you’re not good at math.

I will definitely be enrolling in college to get my degree to become a wildlife biologist specializing in big cats, mainly lions.

I chose Lions because I share a kindred spirit with them. Now mind you I love all animals and I watch a lot of different documentaries about animals. There’s just something about big cats that make me happy.

Maybe it’s their power, or beauty or their family ties. Maybe it’s everything. Yeah it’s everything about them. I love everything about these magnificent animals and I will do everything in my power to save them from extinction and to preserve them in the wild and not caged up.

I will pursue my dream and I will achieve it.

Is there a dream you want to pursue? Let me know in the comments and remember you can achieve it and never forget that.

Thanks!
Mary Owens

My Daughter Wants To Cook For Me

My Daughter Wants To Cook For Me

Do your kids ever want to take care of you?

My daughter told me this morning that she wanted to cook for me and I cook for her. I’ve never thought about doing that before.

Now that I’ve thought about it though I think it would be a neat little experiment. I just don’t know what she could cook since I never taught her how to cook.

Although when she suggested it I said no and also said she would have plenty of time to take care of me when I’m too old to take care of myself. But I’m going to let her cook for me one day when I can better trust her cleaning skills.

I also wanted to let you know that I haven’t been posting much because I’m still suffering from breakouts and I still don’t know what’s causing it. I will hopefully go to the doctor as soon as I get my days and nights straightened out.

So let me know in the comments anything your kids want to do for you.

Thanks!
Mary Owens

Stress Causing Break Outs?

Stress Causing Break Outs?

Apparently my allergic reaction was caused by anxiety. My DFCS caseworker called 3 times in one day but I didn’t know we had a phone interview and the last time that happened we were late getting our food stamps and apparently the anxiety of that got to me.

I think that’s what it was because my husband checked our food stamp balance at a little after midnight and they were there and I’m feeling fine now so thank goodness for that.

I seriously wish my body would stop this nonsense. I don’t like the breakouts, itching and feeling sick but I guess until I learn to deal with stress it’s going to happen.

My daughter tried to get into bed with me earlier in the day but I must have been feeling bad because I didn’t want her in there. But it didn’t matter because she said it was too hot anyway. I’m thinking I was running a fever. Stress is crazy and the way it reeks havoc on your body is too.

But I still have the phone interview to do. I’m hoping she will let my husband do it though.

But I don’t know it could just be what I originally thought and I got into something I’m allergic to and I’m just now getting over it. But since I didn’t go to the doctor i’ll never know so that’s that.

I certainly wish I didn’t have allergic reactions but like I said in an earlier post, this isn’t the first and I’m guessing it won’t be the last.

Well thanks for reading and if you found value please comment, like and share.

Mary Owens