Well today has been dreary because it rained all day. But me and the kids had a good day, very uneventful thank goodness.
They also haven’t asked about their dad all day which I absolutely love because it gets annoying especially when my son wants me to call him and make sure he’s okay.
I just tell him he’s fine and we don’t need to call him.
We have several doctor’s appointments next week most of which are mine that I’m hoping I won’t chicken out of. I seriously need to get to my appointments because of this lump on my stomach, I need refills on my medicine and the breakouts I’m having which I can’t explain. It’s just horrible.
I also have to start going to the kid’s appointments because their dad can’t seem to remember what the doctor says which is not good for me because I never get alone time to recharge my batteries which anyone who has read my blog before knows I need because I’m very introverted.
I never have the energy for anything anymore because I’m always with at least one person every single day and it’s getting old real quick.
But try to tell their extrovert dad that. He has no idea what I’m talking about and doesn’t care because he always has an excuse as to why he can’t take the kids with him.
I am so over this married life. All I want is to be left alone for about 20 years or better yet the rest of my life.
So please send me some good vibes for tonight and next week.
As we close out this year and start a new one I felt the urge to write a post about this past year. It hasn’t been kind to me and it’s my own fault.
I keep falling back into old habits of trusting the same people and even though they have proven time and time again that they can’t be trusted I keep doing it.
You might be wondering why because I am too. It’s not like I can’t take care of myself I mean my husband was in jail for 3 months and I was on my own for the first time ever with 2 kid’s no less, but I did it and it turns out it’s not as bad as I thought.
Am I having trouble doing things for myself because I’m so introverted? Who knows, but one thing I do know is that I hate driving and new things, and it’s so bad that I will procrastinate anything until it can’t be ignored anymore and it has become a real problem in my life.
I have multiple health issues going on right now but I’m having problems adjusting to my new doctor and I’ve only been once. I’ve been breaking out in hives for some unknown reason and I have a lump on my stomach. All of this needs to be dealt with along with the fact I have to get blood work done too that I seem to have trouble with also.
So in light of the new year my resolution is to stop being scared of new things and get this stuff done so I don’t die prematurely leaving my kids behind wondering where everything went so wrong.
I am so hoping that any introverts that read this can help me with my problems of getting out and not being scared, especially about driving in the crowded cities.
My daughter told me this morning that she wanted to cook for me and I cook for her. I’ve never thought about doing that before.
Now that I’ve thought about it though I think it would be a neat little experiment. I just don’t know what she could cook since I never taught her how to cook.
Although when she suggested it I said no and also said she would have plenty of time to take care of me when I’m too old to take care of myself. But I’m going to let her cook for me one day when I can better trust her cleaning skills.
I also wanted to let you know that I haven’t been posting much because I’m still suffering from breakouts and I still don’t know what’s causing it. I will hopefully go to the doctor as soon as I get my days and nights straightened out.
So let me know in the comments anything your kids want to do for you.
Apparently my allergic reaction was caused by anxiety. My DFCS caseworker called 3 times in one day but I didn’t know we had a phone interview and the last time that happened we were late getting our food stamps and apparently the anxiety of that got to me.
I think that’s what it was because my husband checked our food stamp balance at a little after midnight and they were there and I’m feeling fine now so thank goodness for that.
I seriously wish my body would stop this nonsense. I don’t like the breakouts, itching and feeling sick but I guess until I learn to deal with stress it’s going to happen.
My daughter tried to get into bed with me earlier in the day but I must have been feeling bad because I didn’t want her in there. But it didn’t matter because she said it was too hot anyway. I’m thinking I was running a fever. Stress is crazy and the way it reeks havoc on your body is too.
But I still have the phone interview to do. I’m hoping she will let my husband do it though.
But I don’t know it could just be what I originally thought and I got into something I’m allergic to and I’m just now getting over it. But since I didn’t go to the doctor i’ll never know so that’s that.
I certainly wish I didn’t have allergic reactions but like I said in an earlier post, this isn’t the first and I’m guessing it won’t be the last.
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Ever since I was a little girl my mom said I had to be careful because I was allergic to everything, but the only thing I remember getting into that made me break out in hives was poison oak or poison ivy.
Now that I’m grown though I have had some bad reactions to either food or medication. The worst one I had was to medication. I broke out in hives everywhere with a fever and it took several days of medication to get rid of it.
The other two I still don’t know what I got into but I broke out in hives again.
Now I have had another allergic reaction to something. The only thing I remember doing different is I took some Tylenol because I wasn’t feeling good. I have big whelps on my back and smaller ones on my arms.
If I could get a picture of my back I would show that because they are big and itch the worst.
My husband gave me some Benadryl but it makes me feel weird and is causing me to zone out. It helps a lot with the itching but I don’t like the way it makes me feel so I hope I don’t have to keep taking it, but I may not have a choice because I am not going to the doctor.
Well I hope this is over soon.
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