As we close out this year and start a new one I felt the urge to write a post about this past year. It hasn’t been kind to me and it’s my own fault.
I keep falling back into old habits of trusting the same people and even though they have proven time and time again that they can’t be trusted I keep doing it.
You might be wondering why because I am too. It’s not like I can’t take care of myself I mean my husband was in jail for 3 months and I was on my own for the first time ever with 2 kid’s no less, but I did it and it turns out it’s not as bad as I thought.
Am I having trouble doing things for myself because I’m so introverted? Who knows, but one thing I do know is that I hate driving and new things, and it’s so bad that I will procrastinate anything until it can’t be ignored anymore and it has become a real problem in my life.
I have multiple health issues going on right now but I’m having problems adjusting to my new doctor and I’ve only been once. I’ve been breaking out in hives for some unknown reason and I have a lump on my stomach. All of this needs to be dealt with along with the fact I have to get blood work done too that I seem to have trouble with also.
So in light of the new year my resolution is to stop being scared of new things and get this stuff done so I don’t die prematurely leaving my kids behind wondering where everything went so wrong.
I am so hoping that any introverts that read this can help me with my problems of getting out and not being scared, especially about driving in the crowded cities.
I’m not exactly sure about this but from the way the man hesitated before getting into the drivers seat I’m sure I was right.
It happened while my husband was in jail and I had forgotten all about it until I was doing some surfing on my computer and listening to a scary story on YouTube about this woman who almost got kidnapped and it clicked at that moment when she stepped forward to shake the man’s hand but she was on the passenger’s side of the car and she would have had to lean into the vehicle to shake his hand.
In my situation we had been at Wal-Mart doing our grocery shopping, it was extremely hot because it was the middle of July. We came out of the store with a crap load of perishable items. I get everything loaded into the truck, get my kids in and try to crank it up except the key won’t turn and the ignition is locked. What the heck!
Luckily I see a man about 20 feet in front of me and I yell “sir I need some help!” He comes over no hesitation and I tell him what’s going on and I ask him please get in and see if it will work for you. He just looks at me and I’m giving him this look and I say please and then after looking at me and my kids and apparently seeing the desperation on my face he gets in and tries to crank it and of course it won’t crank for him either.
He gets out and raises the hood of it and begins explaining to me what was going on and all but all I can remember is him saying that the engine just needed to cool off. After a few minutes it was fine.
I have to say that was the weirdest day ever. That was also my first time ever having someone act like they were scared of me. It’s usually women who have to be careful but now I know that men have to be careful too.
Has anything like that ever happened to you? Let me know in the comments.
I just realized I never updated y’all on my husband so here it is.
I went and picked him up from the jailhouse on July 31st. He got 10 years probation off in 5 with good behavior or something like that anyway. I’m not familiar with how these things work so I’m just guessing. He also got community service.
He got out by pleading guilty even though he says he didn’t do it and he also said he has to testify against my cousin. Yes I know if any of my family members read this it’s going to cause problems but it’s not like I get invited to anything so it doesn’t matter. Me and my little family celebrate holidays alone and that’s the way I like it.
I was seriously going to leave him in jail but with my son being schizophrenic I couldn’t. He was in and out of the hospital 3 times while his dad was in jail. It was not good for me nor my daughter to see him like that, especially my daughter.
Things are not going well at all now though. Money is disappearing again just like before. He stays gone with his friends and expects me to pay for everything. His mom sent us some money for Thanksgiving and he claims he used it to get the truck fixed but that hasn’t happened yet even though he claims he already paid the person for the job.
I don’t know what to do. I have no support system to help me and no place to go. I feel like I’m stuck living with a stranger. He says he loves me but he doesn’t act like it. I wish my mom was still alive. I don’t have a car or a way to pay for one either.
I’m sorry for the sob story but as always if you enjoyed reading this please like, share and comment. You advice is always welcome as long as you’re not being ugly.
Well just last month on May 10th my husband ended up getting arrested leaving me alone with no way to go. Luckily he has good friends that helped me adjust to being alone with two developmentally delayed children along with my family. Thank goodness he’s better at making friends than I am.
About a week later I got our truck back thank goodness. It was left at someone’s house and wasn’t impounded. Although the reunion with our truck wasn’t all rosy because it had been burglarized. If it wasn’t attached to the truck it was stolen along with my government phone that I was getting free service on. Such a bummer.
On top of that my kids were having a hard time adjusting to his absence with my oldest having to be hospitalized because he was thinking about killing himself, me and his sister. That was scary finding out that was going on in his head. He isn’t doing much better either, He’s schizophrenic, bi-polar and has Tourette’s syndrome. We still haven’t got his meds straightened out either. Please keep him in your prayers or whatever it is you do to help make good things happen.
My daughter cried for about a week but seems fine now but still misses her daddy.
As for me I was scared out of my mind for about two weeks and was wanting him home immediately despite the fact that I have been wanting a divorce for quite sometime now. I am doing much better now and we are doing better financially without him. So I will be going forward with the divorce soon.
Well thank you for reading my post and please keep us in your thoughts as we navigate this new adventure.