What If My Husband Dies?

What If My Husband Dies?

This is something I’ve been thinking about since yesterday. The reason is because I’ve been seeing these posts on Facebook about repost this if you know someone who has fought cancer and died or survived. Here’s the one I posted.

May be my last post for awhile……love you all!
Certainly, in the most difficult moments of life you realize who are true friends or the people who really appreciate you 😊 Unfortunately, some friends will click on “like” but in reality they do not take time to read your status if they see it’s lengthy.
Now I’m watching the ones who will have time to read this post until the end. This is a little test just to see who reads, and who shares without reading.
If you have read everything so far, select “like” so I can put a thank you in your profile. Cancer is very invasive and destructive to our body, even after the end of the treatment, your body is still fighting with yourself trying to reconstruct all the damage caused by radiation. It’s a very long process.
Please, in honor of a family member or a friend who died, or is still fighting cancer, or even had cancer but it’s healed; copy and paste (not share) in your page.
So I will know who read my status 😍, please write “done” in the comments. Thank you for this opportunity to share this with you for those people and Loved one’s that fought toe to toe, time for cancer to go be gone..
Love you all.
Positive vibes and energy to you all!!

That’s only one variation though. I saw another one that started out like this:

This won’t be my last post but it will be the last one for a while of significance.

I don’t want to post anymore because my mind is in a dark and depressing place because of this.

I’ve been thinking about this more now than before because my dad died from bone cancer when my mom was 51, I’m 46, scary right? The only difference is that my dad was 60 when he died. My husband as of today is 49, still though he died when my mom was 51.

I keep thinking, Am I ready for life on my own? The answer is if my husband was to die today I would have to be. I would have to learn how to handle myself in stressful situations, situations I use to avoid and let my husband take care of because he was just better at it than me.

I have a tendency to panic when I’m in unfamiliar situations like driving in new places. The problem is panicking in a car can get people killed. That is something I want to avoid but I don’t know how. I’m also unsure of how to get help to learn how to cope in life when my partner is no longer around.

If anyone reading this knows how to help me please comment below, it will be greatly appreciated.

Thanks
Mary Owens

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I’m An Introvert

I’m An Introvert

Yes, I know, crazy right? Why would an introvert start a business that requires socializing?

Well believe or not we thrive online. Why? Because we get to choose when we socialize online. We are able to block people who make us mad or just won’t stop asking questions.

Believe me I have blocked a lot of people for that very reason. You can’t block people in the real world which is a bummer to us but we remedy that by just not meeting in the real world because that’s just too scary.

I have turned down so many invitations that people have just stopped inviting me to their gettogethers. (or at least that’s what I tell myself)

Although the real reason could be because I’m extremely rude. I don’t mean to be though. I also have a ad habit of not bringing anything to the party. I always used the excuse “I don’t have the money” but the real reason is that I’m not a good gift giver, I never have been AND because of being an introvert I’m too afraid to ask what I should bring. Just thinking about starting a conversation causes a panic attack.

I also have a tendency to have major breakdowns if I don’t get alone time or quiet time. I’m talking about getting angry and yelling at people when they have been talking for longer than I would like or just not going to bed when I want them to.

That brings me to what’s going on right now. I have gotten my days and nights mixed up because that’s the only time I get peace and quiet. I don’t think I will get them straightened out anytime soon either, but I hope I will, although at this point I prefer it when everyone is asleep.

Are you introverted, extroverted or ambiverted? Let me know in the comments.

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Thanks!
Mary’s Biz, LLC

No Arguing In Front Of The Kids!

No Arguing In Front Of The Kids!

Well that’s what everyone says anyway but does anyone even follow that really? I mean I know that we definitely should because of our son and if you’ve read any of my blog posts you know that our son is schizophrenic. If not here is one of the posts about that.

The Kids Went Trick Or Treating Last Night

So anyway yesterday me and my husband got into an argument over our usual stupidness with me yelling at him and getting all angry and in turn yelling at the kids. Now I know that I shouldn’t have taken it out on them but sometimes that happens.

As usual our son couldn’t handle it and the voices got worse to the point that he had a panic attack. His said his eyes were rolling into the back of his head, he couldn’t breathe and he wasn’t able to sit still. I called his therapist but he was so agitated that he wouldn’t talk to her.

He was just screaming for me to hang up. He never did talk to her but after a while of the house being quiet he finally went to sleep and stayed asleep. Luckily his therapist is coming by today for a session with him and his sister and all will be well.

Thanks for reading and if you enjoyed it please like, share and comment.

Mary Owens
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Things Are Not Going Well At All

Things Are Not Going Well At All

My Son

Well my son has been hospitalized for a third time since his dad was jailed because either his meds aren’t working or he isn’t taking them like he’s supposed to. I’m hoping it’s the latter. That means I’ll have to start monitoring him more closely when giving him his meds.

My Husband

My husband is still in jail and they keep moving his court date despite the fact he has a lawyer (mind you a public defender but still a lawyer). His court date is either going to be July 28th or the 31st. I guess I’ll find out when he calls to pick him up or to tell me he’s going to prison. I seriously hope he doesn’t go to prison though because his kids need him.

My daughter

My daughter is doing better since she got back on her medicine. She still misses her dad but she’s not being ugly to me anymore and she’s not being depressed so that’s a good thing. I wish there was medicine to make them not miss their dad but that’s okay because now he knows how much they love him.

Me

I’m doing okay just worried that my son and daughter are going to have lasting effects from this. I feel like they are going to want to go everywhere with their dad and that’s just not going to be possible unless I go too and I will if I have to. I tried to get him out of jail the other day but I owe too much on my house and can’t pay the 15% needed for a bondsman but there’s nothing I can do about that so I’m just dealing the best I can.

Please Continue Praying

Please continue praying for my family because we need all the prayers we can get. Also if you would like to help me out financially contact me and I can help you with BeachBody products because I’m a beachbody Coach now or if you need tools for your business just click the banner to the right and get started with AIOP (All In One Profits). Or if you don’t want to do any of that you can just donate through my paypal which I’ll give you if you contact me.

Thank you
Mary Owens
Mary’s Biz, LLC
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I Had A Dream

I Had A Dream

Well a couple nights ago I had the most fantastic dream.

We open on a very large living room, so you can imagine how big the rest of the house is, I didn’t get to the rest of it though. So anyway back to the living room, I couldn’t believe how big it was. Needless to say I’ve never lived in a big house being poor and all so this was a shock and I was very excited about it, until I heard all the noise coming from outside.

I opened my huge door and looked outside and there to my surprise was about 10 picnic tables lined up across our fenced in huge front yard and sitting at them were various grown ups and children having therapy sessions.

I know right? Crazy!

Well they also had their pets with them and this concerned me because in the dream I had 3 dogs. 2 Chiweenies and a mutt that had ears that sort of perked up but folded at the tips and he was scruffy and medium sized. Then I noticed the gate had been left open and I started to say something but one of the grownups beat me to it and said “she would probably like for us to shut the gate” so they did. I then let my dogs out and everything was fine to my surprise.

My cousins were there also and said that that was where these people always had their therapy sessions and that if I was going to live there I had to get used to it.

A little while later I got up to let my dogs back in and when I got to the door and they saw me they started whining like I had left them out there for a while, but in my dream it seemed like it had only been a little while. I went and sat down on the couch and they jumped up there with me and were all over me licking my face and whining. It was crazy.

Then the next thing I know I’m talking to a different cousin about how we couldn’t afford the rent there anymore and she said that we could live in her mom’s house rent free because there was no one living there. My other 2 cousins then asked her if they could live there too and she said no that she could only afford the 4 in my family.

Then I woke up.

It was admittedly a crazy dream and I’m surprised I remembered everything, or at least I hope I did anyway.

What crazy dreams have you had? Let me know in the comments!

Have a great day!
Mary Owens